After 6 years, I’m back in the Philippines during Christmas time. And boy, did I miss this.
It’s hard to feel the Christmas spirit abroad; Filipino christmas is something one should experience at least once in their life. There’s just something about being excited about the season once the -ber months start rolling in. Add to the fact that life away from home can feel lonely as well. I can’t explain it, though perhaps fellow lone wolves/wanderlust aficionados can explain it better.
Last year, I wished for some clarity in my life and to come home even just for a while. My life was in a standstill and perhaps it was partly my fault too. There’s so many things I wanted to do, places to visit and the works. I was nowhere near that and I just felt so lost-I was envious of the life other people were leading and I forgot to work on my own life for a while. Fast forward to June and suddenly, everything did a 180 turn. Guess life works in mysterious ways and I found myself in my dream school and spending the holidays just as it should be spent: being happy.
I am in no way entirely happy, there are days when everything seems to weigh you down, add that to the fact that I am in my dream university and our hell weeks last for a long time. But I am in a better place than I was last year, or the past couple of years for that matter.
Finally, some of the pieces are finally falling into place.
My wish after completing this year’s Misa de Gallo is still the same; make sense of everything, have some peace of mind, and be happier.
And to Him that is the reason for this season, thank you for believing in me, even when I don’t deserve it.Thank you for second, third and even fourth chances in life.
Happy Holidays everyone, may you receive more blessings and have amazing food during your Noche Buena.